Finding My Way Thru The World

Nat tagged me on a meme that’s going around. 10 songs starting with the letter… I got “S”. Jesus I found this hard. Those of you who know me will know I sing a lot and love my music. But this was difficult. After a few hours I came up with the following:

10. SOS- Rhianna
Could this girl be any more sexy in the music clip??? Good voice, great dancer, sexy outfits, and the boys dancing around her are pretty hot too!

9. Somebody Kill Me- Adam Sandler
From the Wedding Singer. What a funny movie. Good to watch when going thru a break up or just need a laugh. Great soundtrack to sing and dance along to.

8. Suspicious Minds- Elvis
What more to say than- Elvis. Legend.

7. Song Bird- Eva Cassidy
This song appears in Love Actually, when Sarah finally gets it on with Karl after the work Christmas party. It’s a beautiful song; soft and romantic and sets the mood brilliantly.

6. Sexy Back- Justin Timberlake
Lame maybe, but I love JT.

5. (The) Scientist- Coldplay
Once again, it’s the film clip that does it for me. It shows in reverse a car accident. It’s quite sad to watch. My ex also once told me the lyrics reminded him of us:

“I had to find you, Tell you I need you, Tell you I set you apart

Nobody said it was easy
It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Aww take me back to the start”

4. Stay- Lisa Loeb
Just a song I have always loved and will always love.

3. Shut Your Eyes- Snow Patrol
Being the EMO lover that I am, Snow Patrol are one of my fave bands currently. I can listen to their Eye’s Open CD over and over.

2. Sitting on the Dock of the Bay- Otis Redding
This song just touches my heart. I associate it with Top Gun, a movie I watched a thousand times with my dad when I was growing up.

1. Since You’ve Been Gone- Kelly Clarkson
I must have listened to this song a million times when I was going thru a really painful break-up. My poor flatty heard me play this song over and over and over and over, yelling and screaming along at the top of my lungs. It’s basically all about being about to breathe and be yourself again after being ditched by someone you loved but looking back realising they may not have felt the same way.
Luckily I can look back and know he loved me just as much. Small consolation. Point is, not sure how I would have got thru that time without this song that was released at exactly the right time for my emotional needs! So for that, thank you Kelly. I am a stronger person thanks to your inspirational song.

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Your Values Profile

Loyalty: You value loyalty highly. You're completely devoted to your friends and family. Even if they totally screw up, you're still there for them. Just make sure they're equally loyal to you! Honesty: You value honesty a fair amount. You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it. If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it. In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity." Generosity: You don't really value generosity. Your needs always come first, no matter what. And you'll possibly help someone else out... But only if it helps you in return. Humility: You value humility a fair amount. You tend to be an easy going, humble person. But occasionally your ego takes over. You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best. Tolerance: You value tolerance highly. Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you... You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends. You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

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I got an email from Port boy this morning. Seems we’ve started chatting again. Which has been a nice distraction and a nice surprise. I thought we’d basically finished all contact but over the last week or so we’ve swapped a few texts and now emails. His email this morning brought a large smile to my face, which was much needed after a near run in with someone at work who I’m finding very annoying and particularly painful.

I had an unexpected flash back yesterday. Luckily I was at home sick so I had some time and space to deal with my feelings. My flatty’s on/off boyf of 3 or 4 years left for LA for a year. She and D met thru work, but D was mate’s with my now ex, aka Boof, so we decided to set them up and get something started.
Anyway, it took me back to 2003. I had booked a 3 month holiday to Canada. And as so often happens to me right before a long awaited holiday, I fell hard and fast for Boof. We had known each other for years thru my sister, and we officially started dating about 2 weeks before I flew out.
We were at the airport with my family, when I stopped to buy something at the newsagent. As I got the cash out of my purse, he noticed a condom in there. He got all cranky and upset with me, til I explained it had been in there for ages and didn’t mean I’d be sleeping around while I was away.
I told him that I loved him and planned on being faithful. It was the first time I told him I loved him. Typical for us it was brought on by a fight!! I had been thinking in the previous few days that what I felt was love, but felt it might be too soon to say it. I also wasn’t sure how he viewed our relationship with me leaving so soon. Thankfully he told me he loved me too and it made for the most heart breaking farewell. I’ve never felt so lost or lonely as I did walking thru the gates and onto the plane. I think I cried for more than half the plane ride.
All worked out great tho, with Boof coming to join me in Canada 6 weeks later- we just couldn’t stand being apart. We had an awesome trip together and I will treasure those times and memories forever.

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I need a coffee drip straight into my arm. So tired, I can barely see. But what a weekend :) this post will be totally summarised cos brain power is low and everything is a struggle!
CBH on Friday night with Nat. The Lobster picked me up from there and took me back to mine for a few hours of fun! Spent some quality time with my flatty on Saturday morning, I’m so glad we’re getting along again. Shopping and sunbaking was a perfect way to spend the arvo, before heading up to Warriewood for Victoria and Greg’s engagement party. It was kinda weird hanging out with old high school “friends”, but I loved seeing Heather and Kaila, as well as Nik and Tor.
Nat and I decided to stop in at the Crowie on the way back. I danced and sang and socialised til 4.30, before crashing in on mum. Met up with an old friend there, JTC. Surprisingly there was a bit of an attraction between us, so when he dropped me at mum’s, we had a bit of a pash. Not bad, not bad at all :) Slept til midday, and just spent a quiet day at mum’s.
Still run down with a cold, so struggling today. But memories of Friday night and the Lobster keep running thru my head and are keeping a smile on my face.

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Too cute for words! I'm amazed everytime I see Hol how much she has grown physically and mentally. Booked a holiday up to Coffs, can't wait to see her, and of course her parents!!

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Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is low. This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships.. It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life. In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.

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What a weekend of drama’s. It’s been brewing for awhile. It all exploded on Friday arvo; luckily I had plans with Nat to head down to Cabana so I proceeded to get smashed and managed to forget all the petty crap of one person and had an awesome evening. Met a hottie called Nick and his cockroach boys. Danced and drank and sang my heart out til the early hours before a quick shag with my ex. I was maggot. That’s my excuse and I’m sticking with it.
Killer hang over on Saturday, seriously felt like death. The Lobster wanted to catch up but I just couldn’t do it. The girls swung by Mum’s where I’ve been house sitting and helped me move all my stuff back home. Had a catch up with Meagz. Thankfully we’re over the crap of the last few weeks, and all is happy and good. She had her bday bash at mine on Saturday night, a rather enjoyable evening; all were dressed in their 80’s worst. What a cracker!
Lazy Sunday with the girls at theirs. Good music and good company. Only downer on the day was a text from the ex saying we need to talk, and a text regarding Friday arvo’s issues from "John".
Plans to see the Lobster tonight. Can’t wait! We’ve both had a crappy few days and it’ll be good to catch up.

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